Today I'm a little sad that someone who for 7-8 months was so firmly in the middle of my life is no longer a part of it. I have enjoyed having this person as a constant. Sure, for a moment I allowed myself to be seduced by the possibility and think I was half in love with him, but that was my head's response to other issues and it was quickly straightened out.
But he has continued to disappoint me, and particularly so since March. We've had some nice days. Still, as soon as our time together is over he's out of my life and I don't hear from him until I make contact next. It is clear we don't have the same view of our friendship - I thought we were real friends; he clearly doesn't. That makes me sad too.
So, despite being a little sad my happy today comes from the fact that he is no longer a part of my life and I don't care any more.
Guess I have to find a new drinking buddy now though as without him by my side, my visits to the pub has reduced from once a week to once a month. And that is something that doesn't make me happy.
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