Day 7

Oh today is almost over so I'd better think about what's made me happy today. Well, I'm off work to write - that makes me happy. I've put two more chapter edits to bed - that makes me happy. But what makes me the most happy is that although I'm absolutely exhausted I'm still working because I am going to finish the rewrite of chapter 12 today so I can spend the next five days concentrating on writing the final two chapters.

So today I'm making myself happy with my determination.

Day 6

A stolen hour with coffee and a sneaky smoke in the square with my Greek brother-of-sorts.

I didn't realize how much I've missed him until I saw him today. I've missed our flirtation which is so safe because it means nothing - it's just obnoxious and sarcastic. I've missed how he looks out for me in a bossy way, always telling me what I should do and not to, how to behave and not. I love how I can say anything to him - be totally honest and he gets it. And I love that I can take the piss, completely, and he knows. No second guessing if there are hidden meanings.

We trade insults with love.

Day 5

Best friends

Day 4

I've finally finished all the big rewrites./edits (chapters 1-6 had to be gutted and it's so boring not to mention difficult). Exhausted after working all weekend. But happily so. And I love how I forget all about time when I get into my writing. Clearly, even when it's hard work, writing makes me happy.

Day 3

My old, trusted, battered, taped up notebook I bought in November 2012 which has been with me for the journey of this novel and now is beginning to be the vessel for novel #2 as well as a bunch of short stories. And just for collecting ideas, words, sentences and things generally.  It said "write" on it when I bought it so I immediately had to add the "DRUNK". Obviously.

Day 2

Today is a Happy Day generally but my favorite Happy so far is when I remembered while listening to a song how much I love someone and how wonderful it is to love someone without wanting something back from that person - just grateful for what we have, and for meeting him at all and for having him in my life, even though he's in another country and I rarely see/talk to him.

Lyrics:
Even tomorrow in other arms
My heart will stay yours until I die

Well, in this case part of my heart - it's not all his. Not anymore. And that also makes me happy.

Which makes me think about this quote below, a situation which makes me happy too. But sad happy, but still happy because happiness - and today I'm specifically thinking about happiness connected to love in some way - isn't just found in getting the one you love but also to be lucky enough to love at all - both to be able to but to find someone at all to love, how great is that:

"I choose to love you in silence, because in silence I find no rejection, and in silence no one owns you but me."

Sometimes that's enough. 

Day 1

(Trying again after yesterday's - what I felt - false start,)

Salmon, asparagus and broccoli for lunch - yum!
First run for a week - bliss!
A new PC at work so no more waiting for years while it's being incompetent and slow, and I also like my new wallpaper:

Aaaaand, starting to plan trip to meet Alex in Vienna!

100 happy days

I am so bored with all the moaning; all the moaning I do, all the moaning everyone else does. You run into a colleague in the corridor, meet a friend for a drink, receive/respond to an email and all you get/give is I'm so tired, so busy, so and so is annoying me blah blah blah - you know what I mean.

Moaning has its uses - I had a great session this morning where we went through work, the use of the word "like" etc. So I'm not saying I am going to stop - absolutely not! But there must be something else to it - to life, to now. There must be something, however small, to be happy about every day.

So, I've decided to try the challenge to be happy for 100 consecutive days (info here 100 happy days). But because I'm nice and don't want to spam Facebook or Instagram and bore you people so you have to moan about my posts I'm going to do my own version and blog instead - it might be a photo, or a short blog, or maybe just a word. (Starting Tuesday April 22 as I won't have much internet access for a few days.)

This is the only mention of this blog so if you want to follow my 100 happy days take down this url now.

That's all folks. Carry on.