Day 38

I've started the long road to "recovery" again but this time managed not to take a detour.

Day 37

Blackberries and Vanilla Yogurt. That. Is. All.

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Day 35

It was  my birthday yesterday. That didn't make me particularly happy and, anyway, I did the birthday stuff over the weekend. But found a card from mom inside the door now after another 13 hour day at work. That made me happy.

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Day 34

The X-man - I adore him...

Alkaline Trio! (pre Agony and Irony)

Day 33

A slap in the face after Saturday and Sunday but talked to my best friend so that brightened up this otherwise shitty rainy day.

Day 32

Matisse at Tate Modern,  a walk across the Heath, sunshine fantastic lunch, tea and cake (well coffee), Titus Andronicus at Shakespeare's Globe with wine and great company -  101st birthday celebration has been happy.

Day 31

Pre-birthday lunch with my lovely friends - amazing day.

Day 30

Nothing has made me bubble and feel weightless, but there has been pizza, pear cider, conference. And iMessage because now V.S. and I can text excessively.

Day 29

What started as a reasonable day quickly turned into a fucking piece of shit day and it's not over yet. But in this pile of crap is one person whose existence always makes me feel better so I will concentrate on his smile as at least that was there to make me happy for a short time this morning.

Day 28

                      My new shoes arrived!

Day 27

Finally, postponed Christmas drinks. (Which were enlightening given that I can't remember much of our last encounter due to the amount of pre-Christmas drinks I had enjoyed and now I found out exactly how those drinks went down. Luckily I'm so damn witty and entertaining even when I'm suffering from alcohol poisoning so my level of intoxication was not a problem. And, anyway, anything that happened in December has now passed the statute of limitations so there is no need for embarrassment or to cringe. So I did what I do so well - I shrugged.) I had really been looking forward to this and it did not disappoint...

Day 26

Drinks with one of my Greeks. The Philosophical One, who ones set me on the journey to Ithaca. Now we also have the Barbarians. He is amazing. Talking to him this evening has opened up avenues in my mind. Having people like him in my life not only makes me happy but also fortunate.

Also, I bought shoes! :)

Day 25

            Writing & Sunshine

         And cool shades.

Day 24

Happy that I've almost finished my novel so I can get me life back, even if it's just temporary.

Day 23

(belated) - drinks with someone I haven't seen for ages, GIN, finished a chapter.  Blood fantastic.

Day 22

Conference in York on Good Practice in Research Ethics. Bloody long day but rewarding. It was interesting, met some wonderful people (one woman in particular) and I clearly said smart things as someone asked me if I'd come and give a presentation at their institution. Also did some work on a chapter both there and back. Perfect day. And to end it, I'm taking Back to Future to bed.

Day 21

I wore one of my summer dress for the first time this year! YAY! :)

Day 20

Got out of work on time for the first time in weeks, which meant time for a run and some writing.

Day 19

A View from the Bridge at the Young Vic - A. Maz. Ing.

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Day 17

To be honest, it's really difficult to find something that makes you happy every day - a lot harder than I thought. See, I have this idea about how happiness feels. It's not an uncommon feeling for me at all, it happens all the time. But not every day. So when I think about something that has made me happy, I associate with that feeling and search my day and come up with zero.

This is day 17 and from my posts so far only one came with that lightness and inner buzz that for me is happiness.

This exercise is more like thinking about things that didn't suck or I'm grateful for, for whatever reason. And it's kind of pointless so I'm contemplating ditching it.

But today I'm "happy" that at at least managed to get almost all the writing done I set out this morning.

*NB I forgot to post this yesterday.

Day 16

I've hated today all day so I'm happy it's almost over. Fuck you, Today.

Day 15

Fun writing session and dinner with friends.

Oh and some more GoT!

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Day 13

Lunch with a bunch of great people and, actually, being back at work after 6 days of almost complete solitude.

Day 12

Hilarious texts from the Unruly Prof.

Day 11

Brunch & Old Fashioned                                            Writing by skulls & candlelight

Day 10

Sunshine, blue sky, running, writing - these are a few of my happy things.

And the fact that when my laptop crashed this afternoon it didn't actually die as I first feared, and when it eventually restarted all the work I'd done this morning could be recovered.

Day 9

This is a struggle. Had crap writing day although I have figured out exactly what's next and am really excited about it, so now all I have to do is write the last chapters - only another a week or so if I work hard. But I couldn't. Just couldn't find the voice or the stride. In hindsight, I should have taken the day off as going from rewrites and editing to writing the final chapters requires a change of mindset.

I bought a tiny bottle of champagne on Wednesday to have ready for when I have written those final words - over priced and all. But as I wasn't going to get to my word count anyway, I decided to celebrate that , and be happy because, I now know exactly how this goes, the end of my first novel!

Day 8

I didn't have to go to work. 

That's all.